Write about what wears you out as a woman

This is my constant prayer when I am burdened by this world,

Oh Father, lift this burden from me. Make me desperate for you. I know I have prayed this prayer before. The words roll off my tongue in such a familiar way. I need to be broken. Remove my idols. Reveal what I need to see, to OVERCOME, to BREAK THROUGH. I need a passion. I need a fire burning in my chest. I need none of me and all of you. Why is this so hard? Why can’t I seem to get this? I HATE this world. I HATE what it has to offer!!!!!! Remove the high places from within me. Cleanse my scum covered being. Beat me till I am broken! I would rather be broken completely at the foot of the cross than living a lie, than living in a way that torments me, dishonors You and helps no one. Teach me to wield the sword of truth. Teach me to be a warrior for You. I am not satisfied with this honky dory life. I want to live a reckless life that finds me fighting fiercely until the end. I don’t want a moment of comfort anymore, until I reach heavens gates. I want to be faithfully exhausted for you all of my days. NEVER LET ME GO!!! Grab me daily and shake the fear of Yourself into me. Exhaust me for you. Never let me get weighed down by the everyday. Help me stand and fight NO MATTER WHAT!!!!! Let my mind no longer think ordinary thoughts but ALWAYS be turned towards you!!!

Ephesians 6:12-20

¹²For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.

¹³Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.

¹⁴Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,

¹⁵and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

¹⁶in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

¹⁷And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

¹⁸With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints,

¹⁹and pray on my behalf, that utterance may be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel,

²⁰for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in proclaiming it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.